"I'll give It A Year..."

That’s my deadline, one year. A year for what?

A year to get pregnant.

Ain’t that about a sweaty bitch? I’m being given a year to become a damn baby mama. I wouldn’t be so pissed off if this was coming from people I didn’t know, but apparently this is coming from my inner circle.

I’m seriously befuddled right now. It’s not that I don’t ever want to have kids, and it’s not that I fell like having them will destroy my life….It’s just that I’m only 21, single, in school and barely able to fully care for myself and here go the people I figured always had my back and knew, rooting for me to DROWN. I mean, are you seriously discussing and betting on my failure right now?

Normal families say things like, “She’ll be MARRIED next,” or “I’ll give it a year before she’s OUT ON HER OWN,” but no, I cant even get hopes on landing a career or getting a fucking boyfriend before I get hopes on getting pregnant.

Backwards.

Maybe I’m the only one who watched my Mommy taking care of two kids by herself, and taking note on how what she was going threw was not fun and games but was very much so struggle. I vowed when I was a little kid playing house and Barbies that I will NEVER be the woman going off about what her baby’s father will and wont do, and struggling to make ends meet.

I can totally understand how the ring don’t mean a thing to some people but it mean a whole hell of a lot to me, just like my education means a lot to me, just like my career means a lot to me, and just like my well being means a lot to me. And I can guarantee you naysayers, waiting for my down fall, that just like FUCKING, having kids is no where in my near future.

But I thank you for your hopes, because these hopes are the reason I spend my every waking and sleeping moment chasing and catching dreams, because idk about this so called “reality” that yall have created where its ok to do CRAZY stuff like this… Man…

Im to threw.

<3 Barbie