So last night I had a dream that I was getting dressed to leave and go some where. My hair was pulled back into a pony tail, had on some jeans and a t-shirt, Grabbed my keys and purse, went to the front door ad opened it and there I was, Standing in my way to leave. We made moves to the side trying to get around the other, but every time I would step to the left, the me in my way would step to the left. When I would step to the right, the other me would step to the right. So I’m like “Can you move? I’m trying to get out,” and the me in the way goes, “Well I’m trying to get in.”
The dream ended with me (and the me in the way) giving up and sitting on the floor in front of each other, at the door, staring at each other, waiting for the other to move out the way.
When I first had the dream I barely remembered it, but be it that this is about the seventh time I’ve dreamed the exact same dream since I was 16 years old, I cant help but think that maybe I’m missing something, so I sent an email to a dream interpreter telling her about the recurring dream and this was her reply:
“The dream means exactly what it showed you. You open doors for new opportunities for your self, but you miss out on them because your standing in your own way, and that’s crippling you to the point where you don’t get nothing you want done.”
I read the email in amazement, not because she knew what it meant, but because I felt this way already. I would want to do things, and have everything set up for me to do it, but never go threw with it. It was like I was scared or something. Scared that I wasnt going to do something right, scared of failing. The thought of failing, makes me not even want to try (I blame my pride).
Then not going after these things put me in a deep depression, I end up failing like I lost any way.
After coming up with this life changing epiphany, I’ve decided to get out of my way. I always hear people saying “Nothing beats a failure but a try,” but my Grand Dad Say’s “If your trying, your not doing.” So I wonder, if nothing beats a failure but a try, then what beats a try?
…A Do
